RadiationsEmetic: why gay sad face
Auto response from lockedinarms: :-[
lockedinarms: alright, i was gonna wait to tell you but i figure i'll
get it out of the way
RadiationsEmetic: k...
lockedinarms: ive been asked to tryout for a full time, touring
band and i think im going to tryout
RadiationsEmetic: uhh what band
lockedinarms: The Horror Story
lockedinarms: its ex members of Bury Your Dead
RadiationsEmetic: oh?
lockedinarms: the thing is its a full time touring band...and thats
really what I want.
RadiationsEmetic: i know youre kidding
lockedinarms: I feel like a piece of shit for trying out and putting
you guys in that situation. It's honestly what I want in a band, to be
able to tour and play shows all over the place
RadiationsEmetic: when are you trying out
lockedinarms: im not too sure yet, sometime next week i think
RadiationsEmetic: how long have they been a band?
lockedinarms: i totally understand if your upset or pissed at me
but its an oppertunity that I can't pass up. Regardless if I make it, I still
want to record still
RadiationsEmetic: they deff. dont have a myspace
lockedinarms: i think a little over 2 yeards
lockedinarms: http://www.myspace.com/thehorrorstoryct
lockedinarms: i think
RadiationsEmetic: honestly, if you go and try out, i
never want to see you again. so dont bother comming and
getting any of your stuff, we cna arrange to bring it to you.
lockedinarms: are you being serious?
RadiationsEmetic: yeah im being serious. andy you
basically just told me that evyerhting we've been working for
is about to go downj the shitter, because its not good
enough for you.
lockedinarms: its not that its not good enough for me
RadiationsEmetic: no, thats what it is
lockedinarms: dude, if a full time band came to you and asked you
to play guitar, you'd turn them down?
RadiationsEmetic: well i woudln't throw everything ive
been working on for the past 2 years out the window
lockedinarms: fuck it then
lockedinarms: i won't try out
RadiationsEmetic: no because then youre just going to
do exactly what you just did. get all mad and then regret it
that you never tried out. obvioulsy ill support you in
anything you do, but i really dont see how out of everyone
in the band, youre the one that put in 150% and youd give it
up
RadiationsEmetic: maybe itd be different if a band came
to me and asked me to play
RadiationsEmetic: maybe
RadiationsEmetic: idk
lockedinarms: eric, i dont want to loose a friend of this
RadiationsEmetic: obviously you wouldnt.
lockedinarms: so why would i even tryout if your going to disown
me as a friend?
RadiationsEmetic: im not going to
lockedinarms: i wish you could understand where im coming from
lockedinarms: but you cant, unless your in the situation
RadiationsEmetic: i do understand were youre comming
from, but you know this is comming at a pretty badddd time
RadiationsEmetic: itd be a little different if it were the
middle of january
lockedinarms: i know
RadiationsEmetic: when did you find out
lockedinarms: last night
RadiationsEmetic: ohh
lockedinarms: i dont even know if im going to try out anymore
RadiationsEmetic: i think kyle basically said it best.
youre in your prime and thats what you want in a band. if
you want that then go for it. we have a few years to play
with and a lot of room to grow
lockedinarms: thats what i said to kyle today
lockedinarms: when I hit 22, im done with music
lockedinarms: at 22, i need to have my life, you know?
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
lockedinarms: i need to know what my job is
lockedinarms: you guys have soooooo much more time and im
getting so close
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
lockedinarms: i feel like a selfish piece of shit but its a dream of
mine to play and tour all over the country
RadiationsEmetic: have you talked to ian?
lockedinarms: yeah
RadiationsEmetic: whatd he say
lockedinarms: ian was actually the most supportive
RadiationsEmetic: thats surprising lol
lockedinarms: he said, "I'm not happy about it, but its what you
want and if you make it i'll be happy for you..."
RadiationsEmetic: i thought you were kidding at first
lockedinarms: honestly man, ian is the person i question the most
lockedinarms: about commitement
RadiationsEmetic: what do you mean
lockedinarms: i can really see ian quitting sonner than later
lockedinarms: if it gets too serious for him
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
lockedinarms: do you see where im coming from a little bit now?
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
RadiationsEmetic: i was just surprised at first
lockedinarms: i mean, if the risk taken came to you and said,
"Dude! Play guitar with us and come tour all over the country!"
lockedinarms: i know you'd drop everything to do that
lockedinarms: no, i understand
lockedinarms: i wanted to do it in person but kyles dad wouldnt
leave us alone today
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
lockedinarms: and it was eating away at me
RadiationsEmetic: i just told kyle that honestly, the only
person as of now i would want to fill in or possibly be
permanent if you did leave would be Matt Burns.
lockedinarms: on vocals?
RadiationsEmetic: honestly, yeah
lockedinarms: i mean, this could open doors for you guys
lockedinarms: because if i make it, i tour down to flordia with them
and on the way back we go to showcase at Victory Records
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
lockedinarms: and showcasing for Euogly(sp) records too i guess
RadiationsEmetic: did you go to them, or did they go to
you?
lockedinarms: i messaged them to see if it was a fill in spot or
permanent
lockedinarms: and their manager has seen us(atctw) play and
asked me to tryout
RadiationsEmetic: ohh
lockedinarms: i dont want you to think i was looking to leave or
anything but its just that the oppertunity came up and im not too sure
if it's smart to turn it down
RadiationsEmetic: i understand
lockedinarms: i just dont want to loose you as a friend
lockedinarms: i got really scared for a second
lockedinarms: and honestly, its a 50/50 chance that i'll make it
RadiationsEmetic: yeah
RadiationsEmetic: the only thing is if you dont make it,
now im going to feel like really whats the point of playing
music with you, no offense, because an offer could come
along again and you could leave. thats just what im feeling
right now.
lockedinarms: i totally understand
lockedinarms: if I don't make it and you guys don't want me in the
band, i'd understand
RadiationsEmetic: obviously we wouldnt kick you out,
but it would feel different for a while
lockedinarms: yeah, but i'd understand if you guys felt that way
RadiationsEmetic: if you got in when would you leave?
lockedinarms: june 28th
RadiationsEmetic: damnn
RadiationsEmetic: damn man this is a lot to think about
RadiationsEmetic: right about now kyles basically
seemed like he wants to throw in the towl
RadiationsEmetic: *towel
lockedinarms: see, i feel like a piece of shit
lockedinarms: i have soooooooo much to think about
RadiationsEmetic: kg said its ridiculous and not worth
it. and then he was like "im not mad at you, i just have
nothing to say" and signed off
RadiationsEmetic: he gets so frustrated
lockedinarms: he said the same thing to me, the part in
quotations
RadiationsEmetic: lol
RadiationsEmetic: man this shits deep
lockedinarms: dude, to be honest
lockedinarms: i felt like you were reaching through the computer
screen and chocking me
RadiationsEmetic: i wanted to lolo
lockedinarms: lol
lockedinarms: my heart dropped so fucking far
RadiationsEmetic: lol
RadiationsEmetic: geeze man we've all got a lot to think
about
lockedinarms: yeah
lockedinarms: im sorry to throw is all at you
lockedinarms: this*
RadiationsEmetic: rather now than later
lockedinarms: i dont know if emily and i are gonna come
tomorrow, i think we're gonna stop by but i dont know if we'll stay
lockedinarms: it has nothing to do with any of this, so dont think
that...its just that we both have to be to work for like 9
RadiationsEmetic: alright
lockedinarms: we may come over or we may even stay over but
im not too sure yet
RadiationsEmetic: k
RadiationsEmetic: im out.
RadiationsEmetic is away at 11:47:51 PM.
lockedinarms: later man
Auto response from RadiationsEmetic: Hoods up
knives out, end of days.
The sun rises on mass graves and the hawks feed
the vultures for another day.